I never felt this way about another person before (A GIRL) ? It feels so wrong but SO RIGHT? I fell in love so quick.I fell so hard! I care about this person so much that I cant control myself. I've never loved another girl before... And its hard to explain but this is how it happened...
It all started the day after Christmas. I woke up at the crack of dawn to see my favorite cousin Rissa in my bed... We woke and went to go too my basketball tournament. She watched me as i played and when the game was over we chilled with my basketball team.. One of my teammates (Renee) asked me if my cousin Rissa was Bi/Gay/Lez? I didn’t know what too say so I just gave my cousin Renee’s number. They started to text each other but I began too feel bad... I felt bad because my cousin was trying too play my friend. I knew Renee didn’t deserve too get played so I decided too tell her .. But It was bad.. I told her out of jealousy...I began to fall for Renee. I started to get this funny feeling ... I would get mad when I was with her and she would text my cousin. I was suddenly overwhelmed with jealousy.. I began too like Renee allot! Then the next day was when I fell in LOVE! We went to our friend Pt’s house and slept over. We had so much fun..We played around all day and that night we SLEPT TOGETHER!(Hold on.... not the nasty nasty... Just slept in the same bed..) It felt like I was were I was supposed to be. Like everything was right! We began to text each other 24-7 and at school we would give each other little secret kisses in the halls but, we would have too hide them. Because not very many people knew that Renee was like that. And if her parents ever found out she would be in deep DEEP trouble!. So we kept our feelings and our relationship on the down-low. But that became a problem. I began to feel different. I wanted to hold her and love her but I couldn’t! Only at certain times.... I started to let those feelings get too my head and began to have second thoughts about our relationship. I went to my living diary and told her everything ... She told me not to let those little things get too me and If I really cared for Renee then it wouldn’t matter.
So it doesn't matter ... I’m going to lover her anyways. I realized that it even though I cant show the world my most prized possession... ITS MINE AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS!
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After I read your story, I feel funny... not that I think you weird or anything but totally awesome. Here a comment from me that came from my heart, You are very brave to tell this story even if it real or not real, but you are brave. I like your story a lot because it give other people the courage to tell someone that they are in love with that person. Some people start to like someone that is the same sex but afraid to tell that person and it very depress. You can't concentrate on what you do but for your case. Both of you express your feeling. I understand how you feel when you say you want to love her more and want to hold her but can't. It depressing and all those worries about parent, friends, people around you. It just tiring if you thought about it. You didn't get to the part where you still in a relationship with her or no but if you do, please give it all your best. Srr if I talk too much. T.T
^.^ Yeah Cheers
P.S. You are so awesome
I agree with your "living diary." I think if you really do care for her that you should stay with her. I would really like to hear more about how you guys started talking and started revealing your feeling to each other. I really do respect the people who come out and accept who they really are.
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HE'S AMAZING!!
Dang, ang. That was deep. I totally feel for you. Like I understand it is hard and I know how you feel. Because, well you already know. But, I understand your situation and it is going to be hard for you, but I know you two will work out because I see the way you look at her and she looks at you. I love you girly and I'm proud you let it out like that.
You are so brave for getting this out there.
I agree with everyone who has commented above me.,
This is a great story that others may not understand.
I'm glad yu let me into your world., even for a little bitt(:
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