Bad year..

So this doesn't feel like Christmas...  I don't even feel like its anything different? Its all the same.. It feels like  any day.. I think this year is my year...? You may be wondering what I mean about that..... Well I mean I think this is the year I officially stop believing in Santa... I'v always believed in Santa but now I think I don't... I'v always known that my parents bought me presents... But I thought that there was a actual Santa in the north poll... But enough with the nonsense.. I don't like x-mass 

I DONT KNOW!

I don't know what to do? I really need help!! My mind is twirling...? I hate life right now!!! Why do guys always gotta hurt you!! Why do they play so manny games... I wish there was a happy ending!

Finals.

I honestly dont like the new School schedual. I hate it ! I would rather have finals after Christmas break!  But uh well just gotta do it! 

boys!

I hate boys ... I want to kill this STUPID GUY! I hate liars!!! uhh.. Mayne ... I want to HURT HIM!! How can he play me for a full..  He lied too me... Then Made me feel like the bad guy!!! Uhh and I bet when I confront him he is going to say.... "I was hurt"!!! uhh...

Can you?

Can you really regret something you don't feel is bad? I don't regret any of my actions....? Because I did them and thats that.. But I hate it when I really don't regret anything and people are like "wow ok... how can you not regret that?" ....because I didn't do anything WRONG! Ughh... Mayne when I get this feeling i F**CEN wnna kill sum one!

bad...

Do you ever  feel like you have done something really bad... But u don't regret any of it... well I do and I'm kind confused.... SOME ONE HELP!

late night..

Wow last night was FUN! I stayed out the latest I ever stayed out.. I came home around 3.. Haha I was having soo much fun I lost track of time.. And Briana was taking for ever too call her dad.. Me and here were both pre ocupied.. Ha ha  but any ways yeah. Bye 

basketball....

Basketball is kinda frustrating me right now... I FINALLY get that starting spot and I get sick! ugh!!!!!!! I don't know if I'll ever get it back? =[  But its ok I'm just going too work hard and try to get it back.. Except It makes me mad because I don't get too play the tournament , then I don't get too start in the Pioneer game(which SUCKS A**) .. And ugghhh.. I have to earn my spot back! I hate being sick.. I think I got sick from Zoe. but Its not her fault... =[ ugghhh kk well I'll see you all at school .. bye

sick.

So I'm like super sick! Well I was... I was at home fro like 3 days straight and didn't get out of my bed not ONCE! haha Except to go to the restroom and get water. Being sick was horrible! I couldn't eat, I slept uncomfortably and  I was constantly vomiting ... (bluuhh!) its was the

WORST  feeling EVER! I HATE BEING SICK!!

GRR...