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Money is such a depressing subject. Tax cuts, Debt,  Financial security when will the madness stop!

Funny

It funny how a person could misinterpret such a little thing. =/ How people can just assume  that because you like a person you want a relationship with them. Maybe that's true but who knows when that's going to be .  Smart people no not to rush things. . But for me it really doesn't matter.  Only because people assume; and when you assume u make a ASS out of U  and ME..  (haha I just always wanted to say that). But  if  its meant to happen it will. Ok =] well have a great night! 

I'm done.

I think I'm done  with this little crush..  Its what ever. I mean I still kinda like him but I've been trying to forget these feelings and there still here. Its not like it's "love" but it is some thing... I just don't know. I gave up something I had because I had this little crush and it left me with nothing. Well I cant say I gave up that "some thing" for this crush.. But i can say it was a factor in the problem which equaled a bad equation. It's what ever though I'm going to get over it hopefully.. k well I'm done for now..

(some times I think I should be writing about more intellectual things? What do you think?)

creon.....

" And if a man places anything above his city in friendship, I think is worthy of disdain." This is a quote from Creon. I believe this quote best fits his way of ruling.  This quote shows how  Creon thinks. Creon puts all duties and responsibility's  before any human emotions. And in some ways I think that's good of him; but I think he takes it to the extreme.

Im not sure any more.

So at the end of last week I posted a blog about these feelings I had; and they may have changed. I'm starting to assume that it is a one way street? But I am not sure.. All this week I  barely even talked to him! Its not like I talk to him all the time its just I thought things would change. But they didn't ! So I'm going to try and make these feelings go away. Except I don't know how or even if I should.. I'm almost sure that i should just try to drop what ever feelings I once thought I had and stay away from boys. It likes this boy doesn't even know I exist. And here I am "FALLING" for a guy that doesn't even like me... Um....?

At any day death can be near. How would you live with out a loved one? Or how would your loved ones live without you. No body really knows except god and I honestly do not want to know. I believe that we should live everyday like our last, I realized that worrying about the small and ruthless things only bring you down. You should enjoy life well it last.  Be happy and don't worry.  You never know what is going to happen so do what you want and 

Live, Laugh, Love!

That feeling?

I'm as happy as this flower and I hope this relationship blooms as beautiful as this flower.

Do you every get that feeling were u have total butterfly's in your stomach and they wont go away? Well i do , and they are  not because of excitement or nerves! I think its a crush... Darn! I wanted  to stay away from boys but here I go again.... ha ha But it's okay I'M HAPPY. As long as its not a one way street! =]  But I don't know how the other person feels so it makes me sketchy about the whole " falling" for [ANOTHER] guy. This guy is a real down to earth kinda guy. He is SUPER sweet, caring and really funny! Oh yeah and he is a little CUTIE!  But there is only one problem that I see , and I personally don't care! =] Hmm? All afternoon I was with him! I  had so much FUN! He is so fun to be around! Ugh.. I hate when this happens.  I'm not going to be able to sleep now! =/ Man I'm going to be thinking about him all night! Okay well I'm off to sleep goodnight! sweet dreams!

Electra Complex.

Today in class we had a decision about Oedipus and him  having a intimate relationship with his mother. Then the topic of electra complex  came up... And I decided that this was  going to be my new topic. Electra complex is a term  used for when girls find a spouse  that in one way or another  resemble her  father. In class today my classmates kinda acted immature when Mr.T was explaining that Oedipus killed his father and slept with his mother ( sorry for ruining it). And I think that it was totally uncalled for... Electra complex  is just what happends. I see it everyday.  And I personally think that in the end I will settle down with some one like my father.

AT HOME. . .

I felt sick this morning so I stayed home... And I found blogging to be very fun! Whenever I get bored I just go read my fellow classmates blogs and I feel the urge to blog? Isn't that weird? I never thought that blogging would be so entertaining. At first I felt that this was just going to be completely boring ; But I like it now! What a shocker! ha ha OK well I feel like I am just writing nonsense so I think

 I will stop now... I'll blog tomorrow.

Blogging just to blog. =/

So I feel kinda bad. And I am not sure why? It could have been because of my game or just because. I feel like nothings going the way its supposed to. I say I don't believe in "love" but here I go saying these meaningless words. I don't understand what's wrong with me. I feel like Angela from My So Called Mondays trying to find herself. I thought I found my self last year? But I guess I didn't.. I thought I was an athlete... but I do not like to be labeled  and  here I am labeling  myself? As you can see I am confused and I don't even know what I'm confused about? What to do, what to do?

My first post.

The assignment for today is to create my first blog. I will be blogging about volleyball. I love playing volleyball its one of my favorite sports! Yesterdays practice was horrible! We ran a mile plus a bunch of  liners. I was exhausted. Today we have a game and I am super nervous. We play Silver Creek and they are they are a really tuff team. Im excited about the game but I don't want to screw up.. =[